A little over a month ago I was in a service at my home church, that impacted my life. We had a visiting pastor from New York who preached. Believe it or not I could not tell you for the life of me what the title of his sermon was or what was his scripture text. All I remember was going to church and looking for answers from God. Have you ever done that? Been in a service and be so overwhelmed by a problem that you can't concentrate? Well this night all that kept going over in my mind was "Lord I need you to speak to me".
He called for an altar service and I most definitely was ready. I needed something from God and I needed it right then. If you know me, you know I have a passion for serving God, and I am ready to do whatever He may ask of me. I know that the Lord has a great calling on my life, but like most saints, we doubt what our calling really is. I pressed through to the point where I felt as though it was just me and Jesus in the sanctuary. I began to pour out my soul, not caring what other people thought of me. While I was praying, The visiting pastor came and whispered in me ear, "God has a great ministry for you, but he whispers"......WHAT!!!! Lord I don't need you to whisper, just tell me! I was blown away. The first part I was excited about, the second part, not so much. Do you know what this meant? I had to listen extra hard, I had to be sensitive to Him and I had to be ready.
And it happened just as he said. God whispered to me. In a crazy moment in my life He confirmed that I was doing what I needed to be, and in the center of His will. Happiness and joy flooded my soul. You couldn't make me mad or sad if you wanted to! But, in the midst of all my happiness, the Lord threw a curve ball. Situations took a turn. What I thought would be the last thing to happen in my life became the first. But I remember the way I felt even after it happened....I was mad!!!! Of course I was, and why was I? I knew that this was not suppose to happen. I knew what the Lord told me. I got home, and went straight to my room. As I was sitting there, this calming spirit came over me. I began to remember what the Lord had told me. I needed to turn it over to the Lord. The devil tried to make me doubt the Lord. "Oh you definitely heard that wrong, now didn't you!" But no, the Lord does not lie, and I know what I heard and what I felt.
The only thing for me to do was to turn it over to the Lord, and I did just that. For once, I completely handed it over to Jesus and did not interfere whatsoever.
A lot of times, we feel like we need to help the Lord put things in motion. He does not need our help. If we would just trust Him and His word, then life would flow a little smoother.
The Lord changed the whole situation and during it all, gave me peace about it all. God may not always do the things the way that we would, but hey, that's why He is God!
Always be sensitive to God and be ready! Things will not always go the way you expect.
